Being in a Gay Relation

Sometime ago, I watched a documentary about transvestites, I think on a British channel. This one was about women who are involved with transvestites -- either as a boyfriend or a husband. There was a part of the show when during a drag party, the guy (who was the transvestite) proposed to his girlfriend (an honest-to-goodness woman).

Women in this situation, I guess, are capable of handling it because their partners can draw the line between being a guy and a gay. The girl said that after they went out with her boyfriend dressing up as a woman, they could go out again and this time, he would act like a real man. She does not feel he is gay in any way during the moments when he is supposed to be straight. And that works for both of them.

This documentary leads me questioning myself if I would allow myself to be in this situation. And here's how I see it:

I believe that love is a decision. But I also believe that there are some kinds of love that are greater than any decision that you may think is smarter. When that happens, you are helpless but to follow your heart. Life is not perfect and so are the elements that make it up, including the relationships that we will find ourselves in.

If this has to happen to me in the future, I will be like those women. The heart of the matter here is acceptance and I guess I have the needed serenity to open my door.

My Take on Nadya

I was not really interested with Nadya Suleyman but I can't seem to avoid her. I watched Dr. Phil's show on Nadya three times. And more from The Insider.

I'm really glad Nadya didn't go with Angels in Waiting. I watched the Dr. Phil show where the Nadya was there and the ladies at Angels in Waiting were there, too. They were all old ladies past the age of child-bearing so they would never be in Nadya's position.

If I was Nadya, I would be very uncomfortable to work with them. If I have to be a mother under the scrutiny of a group that supports me, then that would hinder me from functioning as a good mother. Because I would be dependent of their support, I would be careful not to turn them down and would have to follow whatever they say and not act on my own intuition as a mother. If I have to mother my children, under a watchful eye and a threat that my babies will be taken from me, then that would stress me out and would affect my motherly duties.

Nadya has accepted donations for her babies and raised money from the media. I would say maybe she intentionally did go to the media so she would have money to pay for their needs. In a country where people favors reality shows on big families, i.e., Jon and Kate Plus 8 and the 18 Children and Counting, maybe doing what she did was not really a bad move.

Always a White Man

Before, I was addicted to Without A Trace. I watched the reruns everyday, at noontime. And when they changed it to 1 PM, I watched it everyday, at 1 PM.

Then I got tired of it.

Now looking back and thinking of all the episodes I watched, I have arrived to the conclusion that it is a "safe" show. It is a show that is based on what is happening to society. An FBI department that really exists. They are not true stories but they are supposed to be realistic.

The writers and producers are making a story on missing persons and they are very careful with the plot. The people behind the show are walking in a straight line and not taking the risk to step out of the line.

I'm talking of the culprit, the criminal, the predator, the antagonist. It's always a white man. They made plots of black and asian people as suspects -- but in the end, they were not the enemies. It's always the white people.

But what is really happening out there? Sinners can be anyone regardless of their skin color. It's okay to have a black person to be the culprit sometimes. No discrimination, just a story. And I definitely think it's okay.

What I'm saying here is that to have a good show, be neutral, balanced, unbiased, and show us black and white. That includes Asians, too.

Yo Gabba Gabba Sleep Song

I like this song from Yo Gabba Gabba (Noggin) and I thought to share the lyrics here.

I sing this to my daughter every time even if it's not time to sleep. The melody sounds really nice and reminds me when I was a little girl. I don't know the name of the song but I call it Dreams.

Close your eyes and sleep
And dream of happy things
Swimming around in water sounds
Or meeting some new friends.

Close you eyes and dream of dreams
Balloons floating on
Floating on, floating on.

Dreams can take us near
And dreams can take us far
Dreams can fly away like birds
And land on a star.

Close your eyes and sleep
And dream of happy things
Driving around in train sounds
Or meeting some new friends.

Close you eyes and dream of dreams
Rainbows, unicorn
Unicorn, unicorn.

Dreams can take us near
And dreams can take us far
Dreams can fly away like birds
And land on a star.

Close your eyes and sleep
And dream of happy things
Jumping around in bubble sounds
Or meeting some new friends.

Close you eyes and dream of dreams
Tonight, happy thoughts
Happy thoughts, happy thoughts.

Dreams can take us near
And dreams can take us far
Dreams can fly away like birds
And land on a star.

Shawn is my Favorite

Shawn Johnson is my favorite in Dancing with the Stars. Compared to the women dancers on the show-- the professionals or the "stars", Shawn does not look the part with her rather stocky figure, But when she dances, she's all grace and finesse. I get mesmerized by her.

I know she puts her heart in every move and that's what makes her special. Her years of training in gymnastics has honed her to be focused, attentive to detail, balanced, and graceful under pressure. And of course, her smile is always there.

And the judges agree: 9-9-9.